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Been thinking for a long time should i return de shirt to her by myself…27 juy ..mum ask me send her to grandmum house…on de way there…saw a xue mei at bus stop waiting for bus…so i tot this might be a gud chance for me to return de shirt to her…so after i send my mum..,i went to de bus stop and ask her can her help me with de shirt..so i went back get de shirt..and send her to serembam..we talk abt our opinion abt love..was quite surpice after noe all her story..when reaching seemban,i was thinking should i stay or leave….it was a hard decision…but finally i had decide to stay…cos i noe..wat i wan is to c her…so i stay for de meeting.. well,meeting start at 12…but she havnt appear…hear other say she coming..kinda worry anythig happn to her..and 1 something..she appear..no idea wat should i do,..all i can do is just smile..so i just sit at one of de corner looking on her..memory start flashing back again..and i can feel my heart started to pain…tryng to control it..by not to think of it.but i cant..i just cant do it…after half and hours..i had make another hard decision by leaving de place..cos i cant stand de pain anymore… leaving de place…just cant tell de feeling tat time..,,,i just too weak.. they ask me why i dun try to save back de relationship? and i answer -i dun hv de chance -nth i can do anymore -i not de 1 tat in her heart -i had try but i fail cos she dint love me anymore but is all these are de reason..even myself also dint noe abt it…i wish i noe..i wish she told me…i wish e never break up…too many tat im hoing…

adui..boon leong..till now u still hav many problem..dun blame on urself bah.sure u hav did something good de..just they cant c it yet.just wait bah k.
^^ i know u are good guy.

Above was a comment tat leave by my gud fren angelina..look like i really a trouble maker..haha..but well..start from now..everything will going to change..feel free to leave some comment on my attitude and so on..i know there plenty to talk abt ^^ haha..

3 day ago..im had been insult by d staff that working with me..and 2 day ago…i scold by another staff that im a idiot in front of customer..dun even noe wat i had done wrong..my heart was so pain tat time..i really cant do anything correctly?so tired..really feel so tired..how long i still can stand of it..im trying to do my best already..wat is de problem!!! i miss her..but i cant do anything abt it..all i can do is just look at her pic..her happy face.tat never erase from my mind forever..

Why everytime u noe wat is going wrong but u wont try to change..??

i trying my best to change..but who will give me de chances to change?really tired of myself…sry i make u dissapointed..i doing the best i can but maybe not enough for u…sry

i dun understand why i keep staying back in de past…but thing just keep flashing back in my mind,i really gonna be crazy of this…i really feel so tired..wat should i do to get throught all this..last time took me 2 year..and this?why….why all just must happen like this..wat wrong with me?can any1 just tell me wat going on?

Time will never wait u.few day before this..get a comment from m ex..she ask me had to happy with wat i hv now..i noe wat she mean.but this make me think of that wat i had now..although its just 2 week…but this 2 week really a hard time.no family..no fren.just all by ur own..even wan to find a fren to talk also kinda hard..even my " second lao po" not with me…all this time i live with it…and now…oh god…save me..even 1 sentences like tat,make me think back alot…abt wat happen with my ex gf sis bf..bla bla bla and so on..really reall dump of me..can i get throught…no idea with it..GOD PLS SHOW ME DE ROAD